Beautiful True Self

We are all beautiful the way we’ve been created. We’re pressured to see ourselves as less than if we don’t conform to beauty standards, which meet a changing idea of what attractive means. In God’s realm, I hear truth never changes. I see the truth of us never changes, past hair coloring, hair straighteners, skin botox, endless makeup and overuse of moisturizers, never changes how we’ve been created by the Great Creator, truly, for our essence is always the same, we’re always our true selves.

Whatever we may assign as a Great Creator, we can all see that we must have come from somewhere beautiful before birth. If we’ve come to an age or reason to question the greater mysteries of life, we can see the beauty of a daisy growing and dying, all the stages of life. One stage is not more meaningful than any other. Each stage serves a purpose. In its youth, it gives happy feelings to a young girl, in its elder age, it drops seeds for a new birth to be raised up in the sun.

What’s the idea of endless exercise and eating healthy all the time? What does it achieve? Does it make us attractive to others who will never enjoy our presence, because it’s never good enough, the same way the judgers judge themselves? I’m grateful to find friends who enjoy my true essence, which doesn’t wear a size or shape. Balance is the answer to any question, in my mind, especially having a bipolar brain.

With medications for bipolar disorder, I can gain and lose thirty to eighty pounds from medications alone. This has nothing to do with diet or exercise. However, the disorder also causes eating and activity imbalances, sometimes expressing through over-exercise or inactivity. I used to be vain because the medications didn’t affect my shape too much, however I suffered from thirteen years of insomnia. Now, on a new set of mediations I gained eighty pounds, but I’m grateful I sleep well at night.

I have found who my friends are, and which people were friends with the appearance I once wore. With my true friends, I feel grateful that I can enter noticeable aging times with companions, who also embrace their gifts that the Great Creator has in store for us. We can unwrap these gifts for ourselves, each other, and the greater population.